𝕊𝕥𝕣𝕒𝕨𝕓𝕖𝕣𝕣𝕪 𝔻𝕠𝕟𝕦𝕥𝕤 [𝐻𝒶𝓃𝒶𝓃𝑒𝓃𝑒] {𝘛𝘉/𝘑𝘚𝘏𝘒}
ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ 22; ɴᴇɴᴇ & ʜᴀɴᴀᴋᴏ
Nene POV:
I finally stood up from kneeling in the vegetable patch, checking on my now-dead plants. I had just been about to go looking for Hanako when Hanako found me.
He was float/walking towards me, hands in his pockets, wearing a stony expression that I wasn't used to. He always used to sneak up on me and act overexcited or clingy when he saw me. The absense of his smile made me nervous, though I really should have expected it.
"Hi, Hanako." I abandoned my backpack and rushed to him. "Listen, I came here to find you, I wanted to-"
"Not now." He held up a hand to silence me. I shut my mouth quickly at his eyes, staring daggers at me. "You can drop the act. I know all about Kai. You really think you can get away with lying to an apparition? Everything's written in that little book of yours with Tsuchigomori."
My heart dropped. I had hoped I could hide Kai from Hanako and just forget about him. I had forgotten about my book. "Please, Hanako, I'm sorry, I knew I shouldn't have faked when I saw you and Renee, it just really hurt me, but I've dropped Kai now."
"That doesn't matter." He glared at me. "What about the whole brainwashing thing? You just want to make me forget, huh?"
"It didn't- you- how-" I gaped at him. Had the apparition been bluffing? Lying?
"Oh, that apparition tried, all right," he laughed, but there was no amusement behind it. "But he wasn't powerful enough to take me over. Brownie points for trying, though."
"You didn't- I- I ran into the apparition on the street, and it threatened to let me drown in quicksand if I didn't do a deal with it!" I said desperately. "I didn't have a choice!"
"But you had a choice in what deal you wanted to make," Hanako seethed. I recoiled. I hadn't seen Hanako properly angry like this before. His eyes glowed menancingly. "You could have easily gotten rid of that Kai. Or your sister, who made you move in the first place. Or done anything. A light deal. But no, you chose to try and wipe my memories and make Renee disappear."
My brain slowly processed that. Of course. I'd been so stupid. Why, why had I believed that apparition? Why had I been so selfish?
"And for the record, that part worked," Hanako spat. "Renee's got no defensive magic against apparitions. She disappeared, all right, moved to America. Are you happy now? Too bad the other half of your little deal didn't work. I'll never forget her, long as I'll never forget your betrayal."
I flinched, then reached out to him. "Hanako-kun, please, I'm sorry, I really, really want to take back what I did. Please, what can I do to make you forgive me?" My eyes filled with tears and I felt my face grow hot as Hanako recoiled. He'd never resisted my touch before. "Please, I'm so, so sorry."
Hanako POV:
Never in all my life as an apparition had I felt like this.
My heart was torn between love and hate. Looking at Yashiro now, her face flushed and her eyes brimming with tears, I just wanted to hug her and tell her it's all okay. But then looking at her short hair and thinking back on her betrayal, I just wanted to push her away and forget about her.
"Forget it. It's all fine." I shoved away from Yashiro. "It's not really my business anyway, what you do with other guys, is it? We're not even properly... properly dating." My face flushed at the word but I ploughed on. "And it's good you got Renee away. She's probably happier in America. You can go on with Kai, he looks like he's good for you. At least he's not a ghost. How about you go find Kou now? He's back from vacation, I'm sure he'd be delighted to see you. You two can go make donuts together."
Yashiro stared at me, her eyes swimming with hurt.
Nene POV:
His words said he forgave me. Or was he implying something different? I couldn't understand. My head was throbbing with unsaid apologies and just so, so much regret.
Hanako's words said everything was okay, but his body language said something completely different. Everytime I tried stepping closer to close the impossibly wide distance between us, he stepped back impulsively. It was so strange. It had always been me who needed space from him. He'd been like a cat before, so clingy, loved hugs, but now...
I just wanted him back.
"Hanako-kun, I want to fix things," I said tearfully. "Please, tell me what I can do. Don't keep stepping back from me. I've always felt so guilty being with Kai, because I was so unsure, I didn't know if we were actually dating, but I really wished we were. That's why I felt so guility. You hadn't asked me out but I really hoped we were dating, even when I was with someone else."
Hanako stopped stepping back from me, his cheeks red, but he refused to let his glare drop. "Then I feel bad for this Kai person. How can you hope to date someone else while dating him?"
"I didn't- I didn't mean it like that, Hanako." I gulped. "Please, I just want to make things right again."
"Well, too bad you can't," Hanako turned away. "I need some space from you, Yashiro. Just leave me alone for now."
He walked off and left me in the vegetable garden.
I should have felt devasted, but instead a small smile crept across my lips.
Just leave me alone.
For now.
I'll come back for you when you're ready, Hanako-kun, I thought, determined and feeling on top of the world (rather like a superhero), But I'll always be ready.
Just come back to me when you are.
A/N: here is your newly updated chapter, my readers :D
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