123: 𝐷𝑒𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑒𝑛𝑖𝑎𝑙
Pain.
Bakugou Katsuki had felt a lot of different kinds of pain in his life.
He felt his body literally die. He felt neglect and loneliness all his life. He felt fear and sadness and bruises and burns.
But nothing compared to this.
This devastating feeling of pure agony. All it took was a few words to crush his heart again. He could have sworn it stopped beating. He stopped breathing.
How could he?
His heart had nothing to beat for. His lungs had no reason to take in air.
Kira was dead?
No that wasn't possible. It was Kira for crying out loud. Kira couldn't fucking die. Kira dodged death on the daily. Kira Kokoa could avoid the mere concept of death with a laugh and a twinkle in her eyes.
Kira couldn't die. Because the world would be too dim without her.
"...what are you talking about?"
Bakugou's voice was distant and ragged. He breathed like he had just run a marathon.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!" He screamed this time, backing up. "What the hell... No! No you're lying!! You're fucking lying-"
"Bakugou I'm so sorry." Jeanest said, stepping closer.
"How... is that possible?" Edgeshot asked in Bakugou's hand. He didn't sound too good, not that Bakugou noticed.
"She... I don't know how she did it..." Jeanest shook his head. "She seems to have the ability to copy quirks... She fought All for one and... I think she took his. She... She killed him but died in the process-"
"BULLSHIT!!! WHERE IS SHE?!"
"Bakugou please. I know the pain you're feeling is unimaginable but-"
"YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT!!! I'M NOT IN PAIN!!! BECAUSE SHE'S NOT FUCKING DEAD ALRIGHT?!" Bakugou snapped. His palms heating up. Edgeshot yelped and jumped out, like a fish on dry land. Mirio caught him "WHERE IS SHE?!"
"Katsuki you must stop!" Jeanest said. Grabbing the boy and forcing him into a hug. "Please. I can't allow you to pass as well. You have to calm down your heart-"
"I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT MY HEART!!!" Bakugou screamed. Setting off an explosion and shoving him away.
He didn't care. Because without her what purpose did his heart serve?
Why would he need one when the only person he used it for was gone?
His eyes were filled with tears as he blasted away from jeanest.
"I'll find her myself." He said with a glare filled up with sorrow.
"Bakugou-"
"Let him." Mirio said, watching the boy. "...just let him go." He whispered. Crying himself. An hour ago he watched Kira fight for her life and lay down next to him. Holding onto him when she thought he was dead. Holding him.
Bakugou deserved the same opportunity.
°.•.°•.°•.°
Kira Kokoa truly was dead. There wasn't much doubt about that.
Shigaraki and Izuku Midoriya's battle had started to drift off towards the mountains. There was nothing All Might could do to aid them.
The American fighter pilots that had arrived with Star ages ago had landed. Having already learned there was no way they could face Shigaraki in a fight. They gave their aid to the hero their little sister had placed her faith in.
All Might.
All might still held his niece. He was now able to sit up. The paralysis had worn off. Now he was able to move, but he felt hollow inside.
Kira was still. The face once contorted in pain was slack and almost... Peaceful.
He was glad her pain was gone. At the very least.
"We should get you a hospital. All Might, sir." One of the pilots suggested. His face still as stone. He felt somber, the body of a dead teen sprawled out before him. He didn't know her, but he had witnessed her sacrifice.
"Just... Wait." All Might whispered. "Give us a moment. Besides, the battle isn't over yet." The mad said, eyes dark and empty. His arms around her shoulders as she leaned against him.
He cursed himself for everything. Hating how he was never there when he should have been. Why now?! Why was he hugging her NOW?! He neglected to show her affection all her life. Now he was embracing her in death? When she couldn't feel his warmth. When she could no longer experience the comfort a guardian was supposed to give their child.
She could feel nothing.
He hadn't hugged her when she got back home from school everyday. He hadn't embraced her when she graduated Middle school. Or when she was accepted into UA. When she came back with a report card revealing all A+'s. When she desperately wished for his approval...
She got none.
Now she was dead. Cold. She couldn't feel his arms around her, warming her corpse. He was late. Again.
Always late.
When she had been missing, all those years ago and his sister asked for his help. He was unable to travel back to Japan soon enough. Late.
When he was alerted of his sister's car accident he didn't get there quick enough to try and save her. Late.
When he popped back up into Kira's life years after she had lacked the necessary affection of a guardian. Late.
When it took him so long to realize she wasn't quirkless. Late.
When it took him even longer to see what a strong woman she had became. Late.
When he lacked a quirk and the ability to save her when she was kidnapped once again. Late.
When he waited until she died to embrace her.
Late.
Always late. Some hero he was. He gave the entire country empty hope... While he let his own niece suffer in his shadow.
"Please... Forgive me Kira." He whispered. "If it's not too late. Forgive your uncle."
He asked her... Because he knew he could never do so himself.
Boom
A thunderous explosion came from the floating Battlefield.
All might didn't look up as the soldiers around him did. He barely even heard the noise. It didn't register to him what it was from.
Someone landed nearby.
"KIRA!!!!!"
A fighter pilot grabbed the boy. "Hey stay back!!" The man yelled. It was logical on his part, to prevent a possible attacker from getting too close to a man morning the loss of his child. But utterly foolish, getting in Bakugou Katsuki's way.
Bakugou blasted him away without much effort at all. His broken heart thundering dangerously in his chest.
"Kira?! Kira-"
He stopped. All might didn't even look. He stared at the landscape. At Japan. Was it really worth it? This? Death?
Any other moment in his life he wouldn't have hesitated to say yes. Of course. He'd scoff at those who would put one loved person above the fate of an entire country.
Now he was questioning that decision.
"Kira!!!" Bakugou said, dropping to his knees infront of All Might. Blocking his view and pulling him from his trance.
"Young Bakugou?" He whispered. Now it was his turn to be ignored.
"Kira wake up damn it!!" Bakugou yelled, holding her shoulders. "You hear me? Fucking wake up!" Tears streamed down his face.
Kira didn't move. She was completely still, her face was pale and lifeless. Her heart didn't beat, her lungs didn't breathe. She was completely and totally still.
"GET UP KIRA!!!" Bakugou begged.
"I'm so sorry Bakugou... I'm so sorry..." All Might sobbed and Bakugou wrapped his arms around Kira, pulling her from All Might's grip and cradling her himself.
"Wake up... Come on Kira... Wake up damn it... We're in the middle of a battle..." Bakugou whimpered.
"Katsuki... Please..." All Might whispered. Staring at them, but his eyes seemed unfocused. Like he was detached from reality. Who could blame him?
"Kira please... Please open your eyes..." Katsuki cried, holding her while his whole body shook. "Please look at me... I'm okay... I'm awake now... I know you were worried for me... So please... Please open your eyes... See me..." He begged.
"This is all my fault... I'm so sorry..." All Might whispered under his breath. Shaking his head and staring into the sky. "Why couldn't I save her?"
"Please Kira... I need you. You know I fucking need you!!!" Bakugou's voice rose and fell like the waves crashing into the shore. He yelled strongly, sternly. Then pulled back to a whisper.
But his heart beat steadily. Rapidly. Too quickly to be safe. He had forgotten about the blood from his chest. His open hero costume and stitched up wounds. He was a mess. Bleeding everywhere. His blood mingling with Kira's.
"I'm sorry kid." One of the pilots whispered, kneeling beside him. "But we need to get you and her uncle somewhere safe. Where we can treat the wounds."
"NO! No you're not taking her away from me!!!" Bakugou snapped, holding her tightly. "I'M GONNA BE HERE WITH HER!!! LEAVE US ALONE!!"
"We'll take her. Just let us get you all to hospital." The man's Japanese wasn't the best. He was a foreigner after all, but he was trying his best to help their situation. They couldn't just leave the two men injured on a rooftop. They needed first aid.
"Get away from us!!! We don't fucking need to move!!!" Bakugou yelled again. Holding Kira protectively. "Fucking wake up Kira..."
"Bakugou... Let her rest." All Might whispered, finally focusing his vision on the boy. "Just... Let Kira rest."
Bakugou blinked. Looked down at Kira. And melted. Sobbing and holding her, screaming and crying. Almost like it took him to long to realize that this was actually it. Even now he barely believed Kira could actually be...
Gone.
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