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My name is Emily Waston . According to the present, i am officially a fifteen year-old girl with a heavy future ahead . Still, my lifestyle doesn't change . I'm tired, bored and want to die once to know what it feels like . Maybe after that i won't be afraid of dying and have a restful life.

About emotional problems, I used to like a boy studying in the same school. It began and ended as a wind blowing through my hair with hatred and regret. What happened was in a sudden way and from there, whenever classes started and finished, I saw his face. During that moment, my friends were asking me for searching the reason why my face was covered everytime he appeared in front of me , and I answered that all was due to the highly utmost hatred telling me to do so. I went to that excuse to hide my feelings for him . I didn't want that, so i tried to say bad things about him behind his back, tried to limit our unexpected encounter but it didn't work out. I realized that I had a crush on an obnoxious person or because of my unstable determination . Luckily , after a few weeks without his appearance, his image in my mind soon faded . 

" How would you feel if a boy had a girlfriend and you had a crush on him? You would be pretty angry and upset , starting flirting with him or trying to break them two up, right? Right. Have respect for the fact that he has a girlfriend. Obviously, it's just not meant to be at the moment. If you wouldn't want to be treated that way, then don't treat others that way. "

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 It was not until I read the lines above that i almost yelled at my second crush badly for having a girlfriend. Each time being grieve because of sadness, I must speak out immediately. But with this, silence was the best way. I felt my behavior was so bad that it did not bring little impression on him. On that day, when he shared a sad story, I had no sympathy for a minute and impulsively , i sad things without thinking that made him angry and did not want to talk to me anymore. Then, he posted a picture of a girl and said that was his girlfriend . At that moment , i was speechless . A dreamer as I had thought that he liked me because we had been talking to each other every day . But actually, he had also had a lot of people texting with and he chose the one he loved most . I was slow, at the same time i also became indecent to talk carelessly to him.  What a sucker i was ! Maybe I will forever fa, just become a friend or a stranger with whom I like but I'll never get his attention , make him fall in love with , because I'm pathetic . Yeah, there will be no next time ! Being with actual bitches is still the best , just like what people usually say : 

  Loves has bondages. Love pulls you back instead friendship is a better option in which you are always free to do anything, talk about almost everything. Well bitching is it's best part!
Your love cannot understand you as much as your friend does. If love becomes too lustrous it becomes an obsession! But in case of friendship the bond remains stron. Infact, it gets stronger everyday. No! I do not tend to hurt lovers or couples around me but think to self! Friendship has more flambuyouncy.
It is always better than love in all ways. 
When you love someone you need to care for them as if they were your child! Love is blind. It doesn't see anything beyond itself. Chances to dump the other person is always high because people change when they meet new people. "Law of attraction".  

Ritika Chouhan

I don't know how it's gonna be. I'm just 15, why do i ever like someone at such a young age ? And i'm about to write something about love. Well, i guess i'm not the only teenage one who had had a little crush on somebody . To me, those experiences sucked and i don't want to repeat that mistake again .