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Kabanata 19

"HI, Dra..." I said softly.

"Oh, good morning, Zid! How are you?" aniya. I smiled and nodded.

"Kinda good..." I answered. Sumandal ako sa swivel ko at pinaglaruan ang fountain pen ko.

"Still having nightmares?"

"Yup..." I answered comfortably. "Always, still the same dream for years."

"Are you doing what I've told you?"

"Yes, I keep on thinking about positive things but it always slipped. Kapag nasa trabaho ako nawawala ako sa sarili, I always gets serious and annoyed," sagot ko sa kanya.

"It's getting more and more serious..."

"Dra., my hand started shaking again last time, when I heard a gunshot," pagke-kwento ko sa kanya.

"Then, what did you do?"

I suddenly remembered Thorn and what he did pero hindi ko ito sinabi kay Dra.

"I tried to stay calm but it wasn't working, my ear started ringing, tapos nanlalabo ang paningin ko. I easily gets paranoid and scared," sabi ko.

"I wanted to talk to you in person now, Zid but I'm in States right now..." she said sadly.

I sighed. Hinawi ko ang buhok ko at tumango nang kaunti.

"Too bad, I really want to talk to you so bad," mahinang sabi ko, walang gana.

"I'll be back soon, Zid," ani Doctora. "Anyway, the results for your recent tests are in the hospital."

"Can I get it?" tanong ko sa kanya.

"Of course, nasa kasama ko iyon. May pamangkin ako na naroon ngayon, he's a psychiatrist..." aniya. "Iniiwan ko lang nang umalis ako para sakaling gusto mong makita ay madali lang."

"Thank you..." I breathed.

"If you're curious about the results, pwede mo namang ipabasa sa doktor doon," aniya.

"Okay," sagot ko. "You'll be back soon, right?"

"Yes, Zid," aniya. "But remember to take good care of your mental health, okay? If possible, stay with your family more often dahil mas komportable at masaya ka kapag kasama sila."

"I will try, Dra," sagot ko.

"Okay, Zid. I'll see you soon, okay?"

"See you..." paalam ko at nang mawala na siya sa kabilang linya ay inilapag ko ang telepono ko. Minasahe ko ang sentido at huminga nang malalim.

Relax, Zid. You're back at it again.

Sumimsim ako ng kape at napatingin sa orasan, ala-una na nang hapon kaya tumayo ako mula sa sa swivel ko. I walked towards the door at mukhang nagulat ang secretary ko sa biglang paglabas ko.

"Ma'am!" aniya at napatayo.

"Cancel all my appointments for today," sabi ko sa kanya.

"But Ma'am, may ka-meeting po—"

"Sino bang boss mo?" I spat out.

"P-po?" nagulat siya. "K-kayo po..."

"Then do your job, cancel it," sagot ko at iniwan siya roon bago dumiretso sa elevator.

On my way to the hospital ay nakatitig lang ako sa daan. I was too preoccupied, I'm nervous about my results for this examination we had.

May development naman ako kahit kaunti dati pero ganoon pa rin ang diagnosis sa akin. Would it make any difference now?

I was diagnosed having a Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder or PTSD after the incident. Noong bumalik ako sa pamilya ko at mas lumala ang mga nararanasan ko ay palihim akong pumunta sa psychiatrist para magpakonsulta.

I kept it a secret because I didn't my family to worry about me. They insisted I meet someone but because of the past trauma I had with the likes of them, I refused.

But I know for sure this was serious. I couldn't sleep so even if I was scared, I tried seeking for it again. I hope this time, it'll be different.

I was nervous at that time, thinking about psychiatrists and the hospital. Mabuti na lang ay tinulungan ako ni Ate Thallia at sinamahan ako sa ospital.

I still didn't tell her everything, ang sinabi ko lang gusto kong magpatingin at sinasamahan niya ako sa ospital hanggang sa makaya ko nang pumunta mag-isa.

PTSD was the more severe type of stress I had experienced years ago. What I had that time was Acute Stress Disorder that only happens in the range of one month at nangyari ito sa akin pero saglit lang but then, after that scene...

That scene in the bus station, my anxiety triggered more and the nightmares came back. My family's tragedy plus the bus station and the threats. I easily got frightened until I developed PTSD which may take years. Ang sabi ni Dra. Ong ay dahil sa lumagpas na ng isang buwan ang mga sintomas ko at umabot na ng taon ay iyon ang naging diagnosis sa akin.

That maybe was the reason why I am aloof of other people, I don't want them to see my weakness for they'll only use it to destroy me.

Maybe my defense mechanism para hindi nila maramdaman ang mga takot ko.

I have told my psychiatrist everything, for what happened from that day of my parent's death up to the moment my brother found me in the streets.

I didn't tell her names, only the events at wala akong pinaligtas na impormasyon ni isa and she helped me a lot.

Somehow I learned how socializing with other people, but there will always be a time where I will be easily annoyed and get mad. Mabilis mag-init ang ulo ko at kadalasa'y pinagtataasan ng boses ang kahit sino.

I was walking on the hospital's corridor and all eyes on me, hindi ko alam kung bakit pero hindi ko ito pinagtuunan ng pansin.

"Good afternoon, Ma'am!" the nurse smiled.

"Can I go to Dra. Ong's clinic? I have to get my results," sabi ko.

"Ms. Sandejas po, tama?" aniya. I nodded, nakita kong nag-type siya roon sa computer bago tumango.

"Sige po, Ma'am. May Doctor po pansamantala sa clinic ni Doktora. Kunin n'yo na lang daw po ang resulta." I nodded, tumalikod ako sa kanya at naglakad patungong elevator.

I pressed the elevator and waited for it to reach the floor. Nang makatapak ako sa fifth floor ay dire-diretso lang ang lakad ko.

I walked towards her clinic's door and knocked.

"Come in..." ani ng isang boses.

Inayos ko ang sarili, I slowly opened the door and found someone sitting on her desk.

My forehead creased, I walked closer and he lifted his head and my eyes widened when I saw who it was.

"Z-Zid?" he called my name, startled.

I easily got recovered from my shock, kaagad akong umayos ng tayo at nagsalita.

"Good afternoon," I cleared my throat and walked towards him na mukhang hindi makapaniwala.

"What are you doing here?" aniya, confusion is written on his face.

"Did Dra. Ong left my results here?" I asked. Nakita kong napasulyap siya sa gilid at may envelope roon na kulay puti.

"This is yours?" gulat niyang sabi. I nodded nonchalantly, gazing at him coldly.

"Yes, any problem with that?" I asked. His parted mouth closed, he bit his lip and I saw his jaw clenched.

"Why? I mean, why are you visiting a psychiatrist?" aniya sa akin na hindi pa rin makapaniwala.

"Because I'm sick? O kaya baliw ako?" I asked him, my brows lifted. "You're a psychiatrist, doc, if I am not mistaken, so you probably know why patients are here..."

"But..." aniya na naguguluhan pa rin.

"Can I get my results so I can go?" I asked him. Nakita kong napatingin siya sa envelope at nakita ko ang paglamlam ng mga mata niya.

Inabot niya ang envelope, I saw him stared at it for a while and sighed.

"What happened?" aniya sa nag-aalalang tono. "What's your diagnosis? May—"

"That's too confidential for you to know, doc," I cleared my throat. "Now, can I get it?"

Nag-aalangan pa siya, he stared at the envelope deeply at nang ilahad ko ang kamay ko ay inabot niya sa akin iyon at napatayo.

"Dra. Ong said that if you have questions then I can—"

"I'm good, Mr. Valderama," I told him. "I'm kind of familiar with this, sa tagal ba namang may ganito ako palagi?"

"Zid..." he murmured.

"I gotta go..." I said and turned my back at him. Lumabas ako ng clinic at narinig ko ang yapak niyang nakasunod sa akin.

I rolled my eyes. What is it this time, huh? Was he bothered about me visiting a doctor?

You were one of the reasons why I was here, anyway.

"Zid..." tawag niya. Hindi ko siya nilingon at diretso lang ang lakad ko patungong elevator.

"Zid, please..." aniya. "I just want to know why you're visiting—"

"I have PTSD, okay?" I told him.

He froze on his spot. His mouth parted, nakita ko ang takot sa mga mata niya sa sinabi ko.

"Now, can I go? Did I answer your questions?" tanong ko at nang nanatili siyang nakatulala roon sa akin ay tinalikuran ko na siya at tuluyan nang umalis mula sa harapan niya.

Nang makababa ako sa ground floor ay naglakad ako palabas ng ospital. I heard the other elevator opened.

"Zid, wait!" aniya. Lumingon ako at mas lumalim ang gatla sa noo.

He was wearing a white dress shirt and slacks with his lab gown and eyeglasses. His jaw clenched as he looked at me, his reddish lips slightly parting.

"Ano na naman?" I asked him with a deadpan look.

"Uhm, I've scheduled a meeting for us to talk," aniya.

"Tinotoo mo talaga?" I asked.

He nodded slowly, biting his lip.

"I'm sorry, I just really want to talk," he smiled a little, his side dimple showing.

"Hmm, then?" I crossed my arms.

"And, your secretary called, you cancelled your appointments for today," aniya. He scratched his brows.

"Oh, then set a meeting next time. I've cancelled today for this," I said lifting the envelope.

"Then, may gagawin ka ba after this?" he asked hopefully. I shook my head.

"I'll go home..." I said.

"Pwede mo ba akong isingit?" aniya sa akin.

I was about to say something but he stopped me and shook his head.

"Promise, saglit lang. This is about work," aniya.

I sighed, napasulyap ako sa paligid at nakitang halos lahat ay nakatingin sa aming dalawa. Nakakakuha na kami ng maraming atensyon kaya tumikhim ako, I don't want them thinking there's something wrong between us. I hate issues.

I stared at him, inayos niya ang salamin niya at sinuklay ang buhok gamit ang daliri niya.

"Saglit lang, understood?" I said.

"Talaga?" his eyes brightened.

"E, 'di kung ayaw mo, h'wag—"

"No! I like it!" he exclaimed. "Can you stay here? Ibabalik ko lang 'tong coat ko sa opisina."

"Magkita na lang tayo roon." I said and took a glance on his hopeful face. "I have my car, Mr. Valderama."

"I see..." aniya at ngumuso. He nodded, nakita kong namulsa siya at tumingin sa orasan niya.

"Let's meet at a coffee shop nearby, I'll be really fast, I promise," he said.

"Okay, faster," sabi ko at tumalikod sa kanya. I crossed my arms and walked away from him but he screamed.

"Thank you, Zid!" he exclaimed at napairap ako sa hangin at hindi siya nilingon.

I drove myself to the coffee shop he told me about, pero hindi pa man ako nakakaupo sa upuan doon ay nakita ko na siyang nagmamadaling pumasok.

Our eyes met. He smiled pero bumaling lang ako sa paligid at natuwa sa pagka-antique looking ng lugar.

He sat in front of me while I remained looking around the place.

I bit my lip when I saw old sticky notes on the side of the café. I wonder what was written in those notes. Pumahalumbaba ako at sumulyap pa sa ceiling and it was amazing, ngayon lang ako nakapunta rito at hindi ko akalaing ganito ito kaganda.

I felt his deep stares at me, sa paglingon ko ay nakita kong nakatitig siya sa akin kaya umayos ako ng upo. I threw him a bored look and spoke.

"So, what is it?" I asked.

"Uhm, order muna tayo?" aniya sa akin. My lips protruded, tumaas ang kilay ko at sumandal sa upuan ko.

"You know, Mr. Valderama, you just asked for a little of my time," I said.

"Coffee lang..." giit niya pa.

A waiter came near us, asked us for our order. Bago pa man ako makatanggi at sabihing hindi ako o-order ay naunahan na niya ako.

Sinabi niya ang order kaya napailing ako sa kanya.

"You're too annoying, Mr. Valderama," I straightforwardly said. "Una, namimilit ka na kausapin ako tapos ngayong pumayag ako at kaunting oras lang ay ganito?" sikmat ko pero natigilan ako nang makitang nakatitig siya sa akin at inoobserbahan ako.

"Why aren't you smiling?" he asked me.

"Why would I? Is there any reason for me to smile?" I asked him.

Natigilan siya, I heard him sigh. His jaw clenched with his sudden emotion and he stared at me softly.

"I... miss your smile," he whispered.

"I missed my sincere smile too," I said bitterly. Mabilis siyang nag-angat ng mata at hinanap ang akin. "Too bad it was taken away from me."

"R-reyna ko..." My heart thumped painfully with that.

"How could you still call someone that after you left her alone in the dark castle, huh?" I said coldly.

Nabakas ko ang kung ano sa mga mata niya at nakita kong nagbaba siya ng tingin at pumikit ng mariin.

"S-Scira..."

"Tell me. Tell me kung paano mo nasikmurang iwan na lang ako nang ganoon lang?" mariing sabi ko. Our eyes met again and the pain on his eyes reflected mine.

"I-I'm sorry..." he whispered, a tear escaped his eyes and I couldn't look at it so I bit my lip and did not say anything.

Iiyak ka na lang ba palagi sa harapan ko? You think that can soften me, huh?

"K-kung hahayaan mo lang akong magpaliwanag..." aniya at inabot ang kamay ko sa lamesa.

"Talking to you is a waste of time," mahinang sabi ko at ibinaba ang kamay ko.

"Y-you said, you didn't know me, why?" aniya, bakas pa rin ang panibugho sa mukha.

"Why? Because I told myself to forget every bad thing that's ever happened to me," I said coldly and with my stoic expression.

His eyes glistened with pain and there's that emotion I couldn't even name. Like I've hit something sensitive to his heart and he couldn't bear it.

"Am I a bad thing to you?" he whispered, pained.

"You're the worst thing that's ever happened to me, Thorn," I spat out and stood. "I wish I'd never met you," I told him as I stared directly on his eyes before I left.

Mukhang nagulat ang guard sa pagdaan ko pero mabilis akong nakalabas at pinasibad ang sasakyan ko paalis.

I was frustrated the whole day, I found myself in Rocky's store, waiting for him to finish his work so we could go get wasted.

"Ayos ka lang? You look stressed, Zid."

"I'm always stressed, Rocky," I lifted my brows.

"Pero iba ngayon eh, parang iritadong-iritado ka..." aniya. "Okay ka lang?"

"Hmm," I hummed. "Let's just go."

Sumakay ako sa sasakyan niya para makapunta kami sa bar. I was wearing a body hugging, deep red bandage dress. My cleavage was on the view, emphasizing my breast and its round shape.

Habang papasok kami ay iniangat ko ang baba ko at hinayaan ang mga taong titigan ako. Rocky was holding my arm, assisting me to go inside.

Kaagad na sumabog ang napakalakas na kanta pagpasok namin sa loob ng bar. I saw smoke all around the place, the colorful disco lights giving life to the bar.

I licked my red lips and stared at the crowd, they were wild dancing on their own free will.

Damn, I missed this! The last time I got here was almost months ago! Masyadong akong na-busy at nawalan ng oras!

"Rocky! Zidney!" My lips lifted when I saw Wendell in the crowd. Kaagad niya kaming sinalubong, nakipagkamay siya kay Rocky at hinalikan ang pisngi ko.

"Himala at napunta kayo rito..." ani Wendell.

"Ayan oh," turo sa akin ni Rocky. "Nag-aya ang babae, stressed ata."

"You're stressed, huh?" ani Wendell at inabot ang baywang ko.

I chuckled and put my hand on his waist too.

"Yup, help me reduce it then..." I winked at him and he smiled at me and kissed my cheek.

"Let's drink first, beautiful..." aniya.

Inalalayan niya ako papunta sa couch. I saw their other friends sitting in there, kaagad nila akong binati at tumango lang ako bago binigyang pansin ang alak na ibinigay sa akin ni Wendell.

I drank it in one gulp, kaagad akong inabutan ni Wendell ng panibago kaya natawa ako at nilagok din iyon.

"You want to get wasted tonight, huh..." he whispered huskily on my ear.

"Uh-huh..." bulong ko pabalik sa kanya. Sumandal ako sa kanya, kaagad na pumaikot ang kamay niya sa baywang ko at hinigit ako palapit sa kanya.

Wendell was good-looking, tall, and lean. He's been my friend for years and sometimes, a fling. We flirted with each other every time I am bored.

I sipped another drink and raised my hand.

"Cheers, guys!" I exclaimed.

"Cheers!" they raised their hands and we clicked our glasses together. I laughed, nakita kong tumaas ang kilay ni Rocky at maya-maya'y nakikipaglandian na sa mga boys niya kaya nailing ako.

As the night goes, unti-unti nawawala ang tao sa mga harapan namin. I saw them dancing in the middle of the crowd, mahaharot ang naging paggalaw sa pagsabay ng mga ilaw.

"Wendell, stop it..." I groaned when I felt Wendell's lips on my neck.

"I thought you wanna get wasted?" bulong niya at hinalikan ang leeg ko. I tilted my head, giving him more access to my skin.

I chuckled, crossing my legs.

"I do..." mahinang bulong ko. I was kind of tipsy, medyo nahihilo na rin ako pero nasa tamang wisyo pa rin.

"Then, want to get laid?" bulong niya at humalik na sa pisngi ko.

"Let's dance first..." bulong ko sa kanya. He smiled naughtily at me, kaagad siyang tumayo at nang iabot niya sa akin ang kamay niya ay kaagad kong tinanggap.

He pulled me slowly to the crowd, nang mapalitan ang tugtog ay natawa ako at kaagad na humawak sa balikat niya. He put his hand on my waist and he danced with me.

I danced slowly, my waist moving in a slow manner. His eyes darkened, mas humaplos siya sa baywang ko at sumabay sa akin.

I pushed him slowly, ipinadausdos ko ang kamay ko mula sa ulo ko pababa sa katawan ko. I stared at him intently and his head clicked and watched my body moved seductively.

"You're such a tease, Zidney," aniya. I grinned, I put my hands on his neck and swayed.

"Oh, yeah?" bulong ko. The influence of liquor was taking over my body.

"Yup..." bulong niya at humalik sa pisngi ko.

He turned me slowly against him, my back on his chest. I grinded myself against him, I felt his growing erection on my back.

"I can't wait to kiss every inch of your body, Zid—" I heard a scream, mabilis akong napaayos ng tayo at lumingon at 'yon na lang ang panlalaki ng mata ko nang makitang nakaupo na roon sa lapag si Wendell habang hawak ang panga niya.

"You fucking asshole!" My eyes widened when I saw a man beside me, with his jaw clenching and his dark, sharp eyes piercing against Wendell on the floor with his bleeding lips.

"Ano bang problema mo?! You just came here, barge in, and punched me!" Wendell hissed.

Naguluhan ako roon, nakita kong nakaagaw na kami ng atensyon kaya napasulyap ako sa lalaking 'yon.

"You are touching her!" he exclaimed. He frustratedly ran his hand on his hair and gritted his teeth. "You can't fucking touch her like that!"

"At bakit?! Sino ka ba?!" Wendell exclaimed at akmang tatayo para sumugod pero mabilis kong hinila si Thorn papalabas ng bar.

I was pulling him out of the crowd, wala naman siyang imik at nagpahila lang sa akin. Nagmartsa ako patungo sa parking at nang bitawan ko siya ay masama ko siyang tiningnan.

"Ano bang problema mo, huh?!" I exclaimed, watching the anger in his eyes.

He was almost trembling, his jaw clenching.

"That asshole is kissing you!" he said frustratedly and closed his eyes. "He's fucking kissing you, Zidney!"

"So? Anong pakialam mo?" sigaw ko pabalik.

"He can't touch you like that! Wala siyang karapatang hawakan ka sa kahit anong parte ng katawan mo!" he groaned like a beast.

"At ikaw, may karapatan ka?" I mocked him. "Wala ka ring karapatan sa akin!"

"Then, give me a right!" he hissed. "Fuck, I can't look at you with that man!"

"Then, h'wag mong tingnan!" I screamed on his face. "Problema ba 'yon? Wala kang pakialam sa akin at sa gagawin ko, naiintindihan mo?! The moment you left me, wala ka ng karapatan pa sa kahit ano sa akin!"

Nakita ko ang pagkalma niya. His eyes softened, he cursed, then ran his hand on his hair and gritted his teeth.

"I am fucking jealous, Scir," he breathed. Natigilan ako at hindi umimik.

"I hate it, I hate seeing other man making you smile. I hate it whenever I see them touching you, kasi ako lang dapat," he rasped. "Pero tang ina ko lang, masisisi ba kita kung ang gago-gago ko..."

I did not say anything, my heart was pounding hard and painfully. My hands formed a fist and gritted my teeth.

"Zidney..." he whispered. He took a step forward towards me and I remained looking at him wearing my irritated look.

"Just go, leave me alone..." I whispered eagerly.

"I can't..." bulong niya. Napaatras ako nang muli siyang humakbang.

My forehead creased, I took a step back again and was startled when I suddenly lacked balance, akala ko ay matutumba na ako pero mabilis niyang nasalo ang baywang ko.

Our eyes met and I saw how black his eyes were, twinkling as he stared at me.

"Bitiwan mo 'ko!" I said hardly.

"No," he whispered painfully.

Napasinghap ako nang maitayo niya ako nang ayos at tumama ang likuran ko sa nakaparadang kotse sa likod ko.

"Mababaliw ako, Zid..." aniya. "Those years were torture and I can't..." Sumulyap siya sa mga mata ko at pumikit. "I can't let you go anymore."

I stayed looking at him, my eyes dilated as his breathing deepened. He moved his body closer to mine, his chest touching my breast.

"If only you could let me explain," he whimpered. He placed his hand above my head and when our eyes met, nawala ako sa sarili ko.

Maybe it was alcohol kicking in but I pulled his head closer and caught his lips. He was startled with my sudden move, I saw how his eyes widened, still not on his right mind, so, I bit his lower lip and stared at him darkly.

"Kiss me..." I whispered at parang naputol ang pagtitimpi niya roon at mabilis na hinaklit ang baywang ko para hagkan ang mga labi ko.

We exchanged kisses like we'd never kissed before, I encircled my arms around his nape as he lowered his head and kissed every corner of my mouth.

I groaned. He held my waist tighter and pushed me inside the car behind me, nagulat ako roon, mabilis akong napahiwalay sa kanya at napatingin doon.

"It's mine," aniya at hindi pa man ako nakakapagsalita ay mabilis siyang pumasok pagkatapos at muling hinuli ang labi ko.

We kissed hungrily like wild beasts, I heard our kisses, his hand slowly crawling on my exposed leg.

I titled my head when his kisses went down on my neck, he kissed my sensitive skin, giving a few bites and I groaned and pushed his head more.

I felt the electricity flowing from his lips down to my spine, I pulled his hair and gasped. That kiss was different from what Wendell gave me earlier on my neck, I didn't feel anything earlier but this...

Ibinaba niya ang strap ng damit ko, my mouth parted when he suckled my breast. Napaigtad ako, I moaned and he cursed hardly and I saw how his eyes darkenrd when he saw my face.

"Why are you going out without brassiere?" he hissed.

"Paki mo?" my brows lifted.

"You can't just go outside without—"

"Damn, kung marami kang reklamo babalik na lang ako sa loo—" he kissed me fervently on the lips again, stopping me from saying anything.

I felt the heated pleasure in between the gaps of my legs. Lumalim ang panghinga ko, I moaned softly and kissed him back urgently.

I can feel my cheeks burning, the desire and alcohol taking over my system.

His hand found its way to my breast, slowly massaging it, giving each one a few squeeze and he breathe deeply on my lips. I pushed myself closer to him and he groaned and let me feel his growing erection.

"Damn, Scira..." bulong niya. "I love you so much..."

Hindi ako sumagot doon, I just moaned in pleasure as he sucked and licked my breast.

"We can't do this here," aniya at lumayo sa akin.

My mouth parted at him, nakita ko ang dilim at pagnanasa sa mga mata niya habang nakatingin sa akin.

"I can't let anyone see what we're doing..." aniya. "They can't see you moaning while I thrust inside you."

"Fuck you, Thorn..." I gritted my teeth, closing my legs to stop the wetness.

"Damn it, Zid..." aniya at mabilis na sinuklay ang buhok niya gamit ang daliri. "Damn, I'm going crazy."

Hindi na ako nakapagsalita nang mabilis siyang bumalik sa pwesto niya sa driver's seat at pinaharurot ang sasakyan niya paalis.

I didn't even notice the distance from the bar to his pad because of his speed. Nagulat na lang ako na nasa parking na kaming dalawa at inaayos na niya ang damit ko para makapasok sa loob.

"Bakit ganito 'to?" iritable niyang sabi habang ibinaba ang dress ko.

"Ganyan talaga 'yan!" I hissed. Nakita kong napatingin siya sa dibdib ko, he cursed when he realized na mas nakikita ang dibdib ko sa bawat paghila niya pababa.

"Damn this, saan mo nabili?" reklamo niya at ang damit naman sa may dibdib ko ang inayos niya.

"Sa boutique!" I hissed back.

My forehead creased, nang makitang nakasimangot na naman ako sa kanya ay nakita ko ang pagtikhim niya at mabilis na sinapo ang mukha ko.

"Can't you smile at me?" aniya.

"Wala namang kangiti-ngiti sa ginagawa mo..." I hissed.

He groaned, maya-maya pa ay hinawakan niya ang baywang ko papasok at nang marating namin ang kwarto niya ay wala sa sariling nagtagpong muli ang labi namin.

I knelt on the bed and helped him unbutton his dress shirt, nagmura siya, his disheveled hair made him look hotter and seductive at my sight. I unbuckled his belt and he pushed me softly on the bed as he pulled my dress out of my body.

We kissed and touched each other's body like we craved for it for a very long time. I writhe and moaned his name as he pushed himself inside me.

I scratched his back as he moved slowly inside me. His strong hands placed in both sides of my head and his body moving and visible on my sight.

Our eyes met, nakita ko ang lambot ng mga mata niya habang nakatingin sa akin at muli niyang pinaghugapo ang mga labi namin.

"You're tight, Zid..." he groaned, pushing himself more, his face on my neck, kissing it if he has time.

"F-faster!" I hissed as he slammed his body in one, full thrust. I cursed in anticipation and desire as it burned me.

"I love you..." he groaned and my legs straightened when I felt my stomach twisting.

We kissed again. The next kiss was the kind that breaks open the sky. It stole my breath and gave it back. It showed me that every other kiss I've had in my life had been wrong all this time.

I grunted, he whispered softly in my ear, his thrusts were more slow that I closed my eyes tightly for the indescribable feeling about to burst out.

I scratched his back, moaned a little as I convulsed. I felt weak after that at naramdaman ko ang paghalik niya sa pisngi ko at muling gumalaw nang marahan.

For a few more seconds, he cursed and put his head on my shoulder. We were both so lost with lust that he came fast, and didn't have the chance to pull out as he emptied himself inside of me. My hand forming a fist as I ran after my losing breath.

We stayed silent for a minute, nakadagan siya sa akin habang ako'y nakatulala kung saan. His breathing was hard, nakasubsob pa rin sa balikat ko ang mukha niya at mahigpit na nakayakap sa katawan ko.

"I love you..." he whispered again. "Please, come back to me."

Like a daydream, I suddenly woke up from my dreamland.

What the hell are you doing, Zidney?

Doon lang naproseso ang nangyari at tila binuhusan ako ng malamig na tubig.

I pushed him away from my body and I saw how startled he was from what I did.

I stood up, even with my shaking feet, pinilit kong tumayo nang normal at mabilis na naglakad para pulutin ang mga damit ko.

"Z-Zid..." aniya. Hindi ako nagsalita, I remained looking straight from what I was doing. I wore my underwear, nakita kong nagmamadali rin siyang nagbihis doon.

"Zid, let's talk..." aniya.

"We both know what happened between us is nothing, Thorn," I told him. Nakita kong nagulat siya roon, I saw how his eyes softened and he shook his head.

"Don't say that..." he breathes. "I-I'll take the responsibility—"

"Oh, don't throw me that bullshits, Mr. Valderama," I chuckled dangerously and wore my dress.

"Z-Zid, please, don't say that," aniya. "I'll take responsibility for—"

"Sana noon pa, 'di ba?" I said sharply. Nilingon ko siya at nakita kong lumamlam ang mga mata niya roon.

"Z-Zid..." tumayo siya matapos suotin ang slacks at sinubukang lumapit pero umiling lang ako sa kanya at sinuklay ang buhok ko gamit ang daliri ko.

"We are two consenting adults, Thorn..." I said stiffly. "And if you're afraid and will keep on insisting that responsibility you're talking about then don't bother, hindi ka lang naman nag-iisa."

"Zid..." his voice lowered and moved closer.

"If you'll excuse me..." I said coldly. "Thank you for the night, Mr. Valderama."

I turned my back on him, mabilis kong inayos ang heels ko pabalik at nagmartsa palabas. He followed me, he kept on calling my name as he ran after me. Nagsusuot pa siya ng dress shirt niya habang sumusunod kaya mas binilisan ko ang lakad.

"Zidney!" aniya. I cursed under my breath, I walked a little faster to reach the elevator but stopped when I felt his grip on my arm.

"What?!" I hissed at him when I heard a voice in front.

"Thorn?" gulat nitong sabi.

Nakita kong natigilan si Thorn na nasa tabi ko na at napatingin roon. I slowly shifted my gaze at that person, only to find Dra. Katrin Lim with shock written all over her face staring at Thorn who's still holding my arm.

Her face shifted from Thorn to mine and I saw how her mouth parted in shock, too. Nakita kong nanlaki ang mata niya at namutla siya.

Oh, here comes the bitch.

"Fancy seeing you here, Dra. Lim." I said coldly, taking a glance at her from head to toe.